tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-65056218637544006662024-03-13T07:43:57.764-07:00Uninhibited BlatheringsMary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-461124145481493262014-01-27T15:23:00.000-08:002014-01-27T15:23:01.571-08:00Who Am I? <span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Who am I?</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">I think at least 100% of us have asked ourselves that question at least once or ten thousand times in our lives, but maybe not in the same form. It could have been what do I like, or what makes me feel things. Am I loud? Is a size 12 really too big? Can I do more? Am I happy? What makes me sad? Am I special? </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Who am</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"> I?<br /><br />For many, the answers to those questions would be “No you’re not loud enough, which is why you are never heard,” “Yes, of course it is too big. If elephants wore clothes, they would start at size 12,” and as a result of the previous two answers, “No, you are not special; it is you that makes you sad.”<br /><br />The world propagandises extroversion: the consumer economy depends upon it, the forming of social and romantic relations depend on it...or so we’re told. But how many times have you went to a retail store to buy something you needed, like pants or a bra, or a reallllly nice dress, and wanted to look at the clothes on your own, assess them and make your own decision? How much do you loathe it when a shiny shop assistant appears and reels off a million reasons for you to buy something you weren’t even looking at, and out of politeness, or the urgency to get them the fuck away from you, do you buy it? And how many of you feel boring and uncomfortable when you’re with people who are boring and discomforting, only interested in being loud and self-appraising at you? And how often do you come away from these meetings thinking “I must be the boring one.”<br /><br />Who am I?<br /><br />Contemporary society places a greater value on talking than thinking, on saying than speaking, on regurgitation than self-expression. And it’s not the fault of the plagiariser, no, we are all exactly the same as everybody else. We are all tuned into the same radio station that disallows you to be the real you, the one that’s buried underneath, at the core of the Russian-doll.<br /><br />Who am I?<br /><br />How the hell would we know when we’re subliminally told NOT to break the mould? When we do, our money trees certainly don’t grow (unless we're Bill Gates).<br /><br />Who am I?<br /><br />This cannot be answered by reading a self-help book. A self-help book is designed to alleviate the depression and anxiety the denial of the self has caused. The only thing you can get from a self-help book is instructions on how to be a different, more marketable self.<br /><br />Who am I?<br /><br />You won’t find out by getting thinner.<br /><br />Who am I?<br /><br />A billion dollars doesn’t necessarily make you a winner (although it kinda does).<br /><br />Who am I?<br /><br />Are you a free-thinker?<br /><br />Who am I?<br /><br />Do you wear a jacket in winter? If not, you probably should, that’s just common sense. But never embitter your mind with nonsense. Who am I can only be answered when you know who you aren’t. If you’re not the person your friends want you to be, they’re the wrong friends. Unless you’re an asshole, in which case, you should probably read some kind of self-help book. Never underestimate the word kind. Never eradicate your own mind and replace it with nickels and dimes.<br /><br />You’re worth so much more than that, whoever you are.</span>Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-53239856057999007562013-01-29T15:24:00.003-08:002013-01-29T15:48:17.345-08:00Pocket Watch <br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 200%;">It was a
Saturday, and we all know what that means. Exhibition after invariable
exhibition when all I wanted to do was nosedive head first into Dorian Gray in
the library. And before I could present my symptoms of an unhealthily warm
forehead, a cough that without rest, could definitely develop into the whooping
cough and plead that “I am just not well, mother!” we had already arrived.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">After enduring about
as much boredom as I could, I managed to escape my mother’s tentacles and darted
from floor to floor of the gallery, hiding behind statue and pillar whenever
adults came into view. In my waistcoat pocket resided my pocket watch engraved
with the initials V.A. which I often traced with my index finger when feeling
lonely. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I had never been
given a genuine explanation, you see, I had merely accepted the fact that the
only parent I would ever have was the personification of neurosis that brought
me here. I learned not to ask questions. But one day when lucid, my mother
entered my room and, sitting beside me, presented this pocket watch. With
difficulty she articulated, “Colin, I have something for you. It was your…your
fathers”, and that was all that was offered. And I think the 12 year-old Colin
knew that this watch wasn’t compensating in some miraculous way for the absence
of a father, but it consoled him and consolation was more than was offered by
anybody else. But as I knew not a thing about him, I was left to dream up my
own portrayals of my father, which usually took the form of some
dissatisfied-with-civilisation type of character, predestined to conquer never
before conquered planets having developed his own unparalleled spacecraft. I
envisioned him transporting sections of the <st1:place w:st="on">Pacific Ocean</st1:place>
(though I wasn’t sure how) across to planet Feradica, the integral resource for
cultivation. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What I also
inferred was that somehow, amidst collecting some of the Pacific and packing
enough pairs of socks, my father had accidentally taken with him the magic
missing link to this pocket watch. As, for reasons unknown and despite
innumerable battery changes, I had not observed one tick in the seven years it
had been in my possession. And still, it was as attached to me as a blanky is
to a three year-old. Perhaps in the haze of frantic packing he forgot to pack
me, for which I’m sure he has never forgiven himself. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The gallery was
one of those fabulous, multi-storied contemporary buildings, painted a
pearl-white. It was filled with modern delights such as giant pieces of paper
with what looked like unintentional paint-splashes smeared across them. There
was no coherence to them and the descriptions given didn’t really allay your
confusion. What I didn’t know then, I would understand with time. And so, reaching
the first floor, I crept through the double doors, panning left and right
before discreetly slipping up the stairs to the second floor. Gliding through
the opening, with a spring-fuelled step, I was filled with surprise as I fell
into a room that hosted a flavourful blend of masterpieces. Sullen yet soulful,
I absorbed colour after lurid colour before noticing one particular contrasting
figure. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Clad in ebony
from boot to brow with pupils larger than the moon, the most bizarre character
I had ever laid eyes on was kneeling on the ground before a flawless
masterpiece. Odd? Definitely. Yet the notion of him kneeling before a painting
bore no comparison to the impossibly enormous magnifying glass he was holding. He
looked like he might have been handsome in his youth, an easy on the eyes
demi-god that was met with dropping-jaws upon entering every room. But the bags
that trailed beneath his eyes now cast shadows across his weathered facial features,
and he was so still and alone in his task, whatever it was that I felt empathetic.
Alone was served as a side-dish with my breakfast, lunch and dinner. I watched
a while as the magnifying glass was moved by its owner, his eyes scrutinizing
every grain of splendour, every speck of paint. The most surreal element was
that there were at least thirty others in the room and most of them were adults,
yet they appeared to evade this strangeness, or impossibly, they did not
consider this strange at all. Perhaps this was considered as normal behaviour
in the art world, but not to me. The 12 year-old Colin Benedict found this
thoroughly intriguing and much more inviting than splashes of figureless paint.
What ever could he be looking for? This was a question I needed answering. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I approached
slowly, ensuring not to startle him and whispered, “What are you looking for?”
This was ineffectual, as he did not move a millimetre. I reiterated. No change.
I tried a third time before submitting. But this enigma was one so curious that
I couldn’t withdraw my eyes from him. He had no bag with him that I could see,
and seemingly, no pockets on his cloak to store money, or keys to a house he
shared with another, or a picture of a loved one, no phone – nothing. Only the
magnifying glass. And the strangeness, the peculiarity, the mystery, it was
wonderful. Regardless of him being unwilling to respond, I knew I had to figure
it out, so I turned to the painting. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The image before
me was one I was very familiar with, for it was pasted on every billboard in
the area, in every carriage of every train and every window of every cafe I had
walked by in coming here. It was an encapsulation of freedom, or freedom as
some knew it, excluding my 12 year-old self. It was an illustration of a
multiplex of retail stores cluttered with dark soulless characters, their faces
draped in apathy. Only, there was one face that rather contrasted the
collection of ghouls. In the centre was a lady smiling, smothered in green and
dressed as the statue of liberty. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What was
peculiar- the 12 year-old Colin noticed- was the tablet she was holding. As
opposed to saying ‘<st1:date day="4" month="7" w:st="on" year="1776">July 4,
1776</st1:date>’ in Roman Numerals, it read ‘Diet or Regular?’ But I didn’t
really grasp it, or what this man was doing. And yet I needed to understand,
something about this whole affair spoke to me. I was particularly interested in
why the statue of liberty had six spikes in her crown where there are usually seven,
and I wondered…could this be the reason for his strange behaviour? Was this a
fake? I had to find out. And so, as confidently as possible, I began…<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“I-”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“There you are!
I’ve been looking everywhere for you! Your mother has been worried sick”, the
boyfriend <st1:city w:st="on">Lawrence</st1:city>
interjected. In my moment of absorption, I’d displaced the idea that they may
have realised I had wandered off. But the only ‘guardian’ in view was <st1:city w:st="on">Lawrence</st1:city>, so apparently
my mother wasn’t worried enough to climb a few stairwells. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“I... I’m sorry,
but I just need to-”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“You just need
to come with me, boy!” I hated that he called me that. “We’re going to be late
after your little disappearance”, he complained pulling me along.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Neck over
shoulder, I watched as the figure that had captivated me became smaller and
smaller, yet somehow the magnifying glass retained its enormity. I would return
tomorrow. I had to. The several hours that followed were a blurry haze of paint
and sculptures. Before I knew it, the day had passed. My mother came in my
room, kissed me on the cheek, told me to be nicer to “Your new father”, and
left. How could she impose such an important title so passively? Did she care
about me at all? “New father”. This implied that I had the current presence of
a father-figure that had replaced one I had before him. I could confirm
neither. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My mind struggled
to locate the off switch that evening, resulting in a solid two hours of sleep.
But as I woke, I felt I was already going to be too late. That did not stop me.
I pulled on my lucky red jumper and after promising that I would be home from
“The library” by two, I took a forty minute tube ride before escaping the
station. Hordes of militant shoppers, businessmen and -women interspersed with
scatterings of snowflakes made for one hell of a challenging journey across
town. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Fortunately I was
tiny and drunk on adrenaline. I had just two hours remaining before mother
would realise I had borrowed twenty-five pounds from her purse without consent,
that the library books I was returning were in my room and that I had not taken
Stevie for a walk, which I was riddled with guilt about. So I hastened,
traversing the bridge. And suddenly I was at the entrance. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My heart’s thud
escalated. How exciting. More exciting than anything I had ever done. I had
travelled all the way across town – by myself! I survived it! And yet as I walked
in, my motion slowed to the extent that I was almost immobile.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Was it not a
little excessive, this whole thing? Why had I been so attracted to this man?
Why did this quest hold such a great value that I just had to come back? The
truth is I didn’t know. All I knew was that if I had tried to leave the gallery
in that moment, I might probably have definitely spontaneously combusted. I
pushed through the door and stumbled into what seemed like a much larger foyer
than yesterday. Everything seemed so much bigger than when I had adults accompanying
me. Perhaps I had miscalculated the spikes. And what if I was wrong? What if
the man was just strange? These reservations hindered me in no respect
whatsoever. Masses of people were buying tickets, and my curfew was fast approaching,
so I had no choice but to find an alternative. At about this time, I
conveniently noticed the single guard surveying the ground floor.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It was decided:
as soon as his attention was deterred, I would make a break for the stairs. So
I waited, and waited, and waited some more. And then…somehow…my wish was
granted. A lady in blue came into view. She asked the guard to take a photo of
her with her family, which he probably shouldn’t have done. But he did. And I
seized the opportunity. Ever so calmly, I headed straight for and then
conquered the flight of stairs. The second level of stairs soon fell away
behind me. I moved into the foyer and glancing to the left, my eyes immediately
fell upon the man in black.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Gulping, I moved
closer towards him, until I was directly next to him and opening my mouth,
gesturing with my left hand, “I-“<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“There you are
you little rat! How dare you enter the gallery without having purchased a
ticket? How did you ever get up here?” <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The guard
accused a boy in red at the other side of the gallery. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“I ought to
throw you out!”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I turned and
tugged on the man’s velvet jacket. He did not respond.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“Oh it wasn’t
you was it? Well then who could it have been?” The guard patronised, before
noticing in his peripheral vision, me…Colin Benedict. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“What do you
think you are doing? Take your hand off my son!” The mother of the accused
yelped. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“Oh dear, please
do accept my apologies”. Turning, “It was you I saw”, he snarled rapidly
marching towards me. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> “Uh oh”, I tugged some more, “Listen Mr, the
reason I came here today is because I saw you studying this painting yesterday
and, well, I noticed something peculiar and felt it would have been wrong not
to tell you-”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“YOU! Come with
me at once, you have much explaining to do!” He clutched my red jumper,
splashes of snow falling onto and yet not discouraging his tight grasp. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The man in black
turned, “Wait…please, just a moment.”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“Well do forgive
me Mr. Alessandro, but this boy is nothing short of a common criminal”. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ignoring him,
the man in black asked me, “What did you notice boy?”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Raising my left
hand, I pointed to the crown.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“Where there are
six spikes, there should be seven. Forgive me”, looking at the guard, “but, I
think this is a fake.”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“This is
preposterous, not only do you commit a crime”, I thought this somewhat
farfetched, “but now you are questioning the authenticity of this painting?
Apologise to Mr Alessandro at once!”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">He then
proceeded in reeling off the company policy, and how I was going to be put away
for a very, very long time, though I wasn’t sure where, for I was only twelve.
And I only half heard what he was saying, as I was focused on Mr Alessandro who
didn’t seem to hear a word of this. He lifted the magnifying glass and zoomed
in on lady liberty. For what seemed like an eternity, he was fixated on the
error. And then…quivering erupted throughout his entire body; every cell
excited, every hair stood on end. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This man I would
later learn was, in fact, the artist, thus the original was like his own child,
completely and absolutely recognisable to him. So many times he had attempted
to convince Raymond Craven- the gallery owner- that this was not his work, to
no avail. He was, unfortunately, telling Raymond what Raymond already knew. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-64482771218466525642013-01-10T15:47:00.002-08:002014-06-16T14:43:19.876-07:00Colours <div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Faces beg for answers…for a while. It usually happens when they’re glowing every colour of the spectrum: violet, blue, green, yellow, orange, red; sometimes all at once. A child’s face is a prism of antidotes to eye-sores. A prism, like a man-made pyramid coloured by the sun, built by sun-reddened hands, some wrinkled, some as young as children’s hands. Children with fewer colours in their</span><span class="text_exposed_show"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> faces. <br /> <br /> Questions asked become questions answered. Answers generate more questions, which generate more answers. Time passes. The question of “Who built the pyramids?” is answered. The questions become fewer, until the questioning process doesn’t make sense anymore. <br /> <br /> Gradually, the colour stops emanating from faces. The pyramids wear with the winds of time, like faces. Cracks in the pavement are flooded with rain until they open up the Earth. A hand drops the remainder of his nicotine-crutch and watches as it is swallowed by the ground. Houses under siege of roaring waters trample castles made of sand and become marine automobiles.<br /> <br /> A mocking bird hears dreams collecting, he reiterates them. Decides they’re his dreams too. He sings so hard his eyes close. He doesn’t see the tempest he is flying into. <br /> <br /> The inevitability of dissatisfaction ensues. People rely on the sun, the moon, the rainbow to give colour back to them. And they do, because nature doesn’t disappoint: we do. We self-destruct, we devalue riches. We adorn what requires no adornment. And while a frown can redirect your path up a steep and oxygen-less hill, a smile sends you on a bike downhill, lasts much longer. Hope remains, despite statistics or unlikelihood of hope’s success. Colours return to faces, and as they do, they see the colours of others, projected, through layer upon layer of clouds brimming with tears and form rainbows.</span></span></div>
Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-88468090169933224982013-01-04T09:36:00.001-08:002013-01-04T13:54:53.500-08:00Favourite Place <br />
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The distant lulls of moving traffic, the fluttering of paper cradling freshly lain flowers, stray hairs dancing before your irises pining for your attention. Windmills firing air in different directions, light leaving us slowly but unmistakeably, leaving us. This is my favourite place, a sanctuary that only I know about I’m sure. From here, I see everything: the smoke rising from wealthy chimneys, the white clusters of fluff adorning the farming plantation, transforming it into a gazing opportunity. Never a photo opportunity. Photos are 2D, always unbearably self-assured. You can’t feel your temperate drop when you look at a photograph or wince at the ache of your heels from the boots that carried you here. You can’t feel your mind getting lost in the open space, or the wind change. You cannot see the speckles of human-life conquering mountains in the distance- distant enough for one to mistake them for trees, yet close enough for you to know they are not. You cannot find yourself caving in to your tongue’s jealousy of the banquet your eyes are devouring, as you roll a cigarette. You cannot taste the sweet nicotine that appears to be boundless. You have to be fair to the senses and offer them equilibrium. Even the murmuration above are playing their part. </div>
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There is solitude and open-access to however much oxygen you can withstand, never feeling gluttonous, only weightless. The azure of the lightest, softest blue falls into the arms of the white sky, holding each other with the knowledge that they cannot hold each other long before the breeze separates them forever, permanently, unless by chance the Universe’s elements’ allow them to come together again. Perhaps they might take pity on them, knowing that yin and yang just make sense, knowing their only purpose is to rendezvous eternally. Humanness imposes thoughts on the thickest most colourful air, vivid projections from your attention-seeking imagination and you find yourself seeing everything that matters. Past; present; future; impossible, all assembling and begging you to stay here, regardless of your numbing limbs, regardless of life’s demands and time throwing itself away from you. Here your internal is exhibited. Your inner-voice dominates. Here, you are the picture inside your head, but it is never permanent- it couldn’t be. Like the blending of blue and white, nothing so wonderful can be maintained for long, but you will always find it again. Seize it when you do. Hide the restrictive technology. Pick up your fleshed-out pen and pretty notepad with lined-pages. Express your everything and the mind will change you, as your body changes your mind.</div>
Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-55714005443671090022012-10-15T12:14:00.001-07:002012-10-16T07:47:08.993-07:00English Studies with Creative Writing: Second Year<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Thirty-five seconds. I’ve been
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bizarre horse-riding dance move. Thirty seconds. Why on Earth did I agree to go
first? Twenty-five seconds. Oh shit, I think that’s Lucy; please let it be
Sophie or Abigail or anyone in the world but Lucy. Twenty seconds. There’s no
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realised that I didn’t have all that I wanted at hand. For instance, I couldn’t
find my Paul Simon CD, my Jimi Hendrix T-Shirt is in the wash, there wasn’t
enough room for friends and family on the blanket and Flint Lockwood was far
too busy to bring his animated self to sit in for the picture. What was more
surprising was what I did find and I didn’t think about. What you see before
you is a snapshot of nostalgia for the most part, that begins with a poem from
an ex-boyfriend, which is partially veiled by a scrap-book. The scrap-book, I
discovered this afternoon in a forgotten drawer. The picture on the left is of my
Year 4 class at Primary School, attached to a card from my teacher who was
leaving. At the side of the photo, he has drawn a cartoon picture of himself
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hole. <span style="color: red;">And</span> as you can see by the beginning of
this sentence, old habits never die. It’s not clear in the Vanitas image, but I’ve
even written an annotation at the side of the photo stating, “This is Thomas
and I fansy him”, which amused me. I wonder who I was pointing him out to.
Perhaps I was writing it down just in case I forgot for a second. Either way,
the whole thing cracked me up, particularly given that it was one of just three
entries into a very exciting scrap-book. The following page contained a “Worker
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Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-31757453634512012432012-06-25T07:01:00.001-07:002012-10-15T12:16:01.673-07:00Some kind of diary-shaped thing.<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So, I've had a revelation today and clearly, that is more worthy and contented than a blank-post might be. That's not necessarily true, but here are some words and stuff about some stuff I've been thinking. I have always been obsessed with music, strums, beats, whistles, noise - real sounds have always succeeded in arousing the hairs on my neck to the extent that they almost pull my skin off. But it is only recently that I have thought, "Hey, maybe I could do this". Stupid really, to be completely absorbed by something but never partake in it. But as it is always the present, I tend not to look at the previous present and resign in a sigh because I didn't use that present for this purpose. And I'll pretend I'm not worried about lost present's because the present is never invalid, never late and never negated. So...in this present, I am calling guitar Teachers in the local area to see if they will be able to interpret the sounds formed by my scarred larynx (after screaming along to Californiacation last night, positively dying as Flea walked across the stage on his hands) and will my musical education. Those I have spoken to thus far clearly assume correctly that I have been to a concert and am thus instantly determined to achieve rock-star status; that fame and talent is merely a guitar lesson away. "Naive twat", screamed all of their thoughts in unison. This is regrettably a little accurate, save for the rock-star status desires. I don't want to be musical to be famous (though last night I did think, "Fuck I want to make music"), I want to play and sing for the sake of playing and singing. Over the past few years I have written songs, but songs without music are a tricky one, and usually an unlikely victory. The concern is that you may be singing your words to fit the instrumental of an existing artist's song. But I couldn't do nothing. And since I need to write more than anything and didn't have ten years worth of instrument-perfecting on my side, it was my only option. So I have words but no music. But I'm hoping that is going to rapidly change. Hoping, hoping and more importantly, dreaming that I'm better than say if you asked a hyena to play the cello. I'm being discriminatory there and not taking into consideration their possible potential with a cello. How the hell would I know if a hyena could play a cello or not? Maybe it's a hypothesis that should be tested. But yeah, next stop, guitar. And I sincerely hope it's the last stop I make.</span></div>
Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-45012009640059603052012-05-24T16:05:00.001-07:002012-05-24T16:11:25.147-07:00Sun Days<br />
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indulgence. In circumstances where it is close to impossible for children to
surmount the sea of snow obstructing both their escape from their houses
(except for sledging marathons) and the entrance to school, I completely understand
the decision to call it off. But today, I appear to have stumbled across a new
convention, some invigorating secret that I was not made privy to during my
school years. I discovered the manifestation of a Sun Day. Like me prior to
today, you might be a little perplexed as to what a Sun Day is, excluding the
latter day of a weekend. A Sun Day, entitled due to its nature, is apparently
an occasion when the sun is just that bit too alluring and deterring for
children to withdraw their sungasming eyes from it and carry themselves to
school. And as a vital alternative, they gather and dissipate on the beach. The
difference is obvious between these two scenarios - one involves obstruction,
the other, distraction. But in Whitby, both qualify as reasons to avert a day
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go, I would vote for snow days to go. I mean consider the Sun Day, particularly
today and particularly in Whitby. I would have been incredulously pissed if I
was within range of viewing the sea, but restricted by an opaque glass barrier
and teacher-shaped dictator who prevented me running into it, in that way we
all humanly have the impulse to do. You know it, I know it, and we all pretend
that what’s going to happen is not going to happen. We walk along the beach, we
remove our substance-less flip-flops which we all know are excessive for the
sporadic flicker of sunlight that grazes the North. We proceed in walking swiftly
towards the breakers and we begin to run. We run faster, running to something
larger than our miserably insignificant bodies, running straight into what
makes up most of the world, something unconquerable and untameable. And when we
get there, when we are just on the verge of the end of the beach, our feet carrying
part of it with them, we encounter something entirely familiar, yet entirely surprising.
Waves, crashing into us, salting and reviving our bodies. And electrically, we throw
ourselves backwards and giddily run away from the toppling crystal waters. And then we
turn and repeat the running motion, yearning for the icy collision, and
unfailingly gasp in astonishment when the waves repeat the same ritual as we
repeat ours. We love it. We cannot help it. And we want more of it. But there
is never enough of it. And we do it for as long as we can, always absorbing
this fresh taste of nostalgia, this sea-salted gesture that allays every
scattered thought and revitalises every dream we hold. And we long to stay
there, expecting the waves to one day surprise us and shy away. But they won’t,
and we love them for never disappointing. Imagine attending a school that stood
opposite such an enrapturing landscape, gazing on such a human simplicity that
we cannot help but adore, with no ability to indulge in it. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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dark and she was light…much lighter than the dark air pressing on his
shoulders. He had always spoken with such conviction, until he heard her
voice. Hers shattered his. His words broke before they fled his mouth.
But she caught them in her ears and they rested there a while, before swimming
through to her mind. It wasn’t the sounds of the words that made them
particularly all-consuming. She had heard the words before, spoken them, but it
was the look that delivered the words…that irresistible thought-stilling look.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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almost didn’t happen. It was like juggling, only with words. What he was
supposed to say, and what would have been conventionally appropriate to say was
“Congratulations” or “Kudos” or any other token of praise. He didn’t need to
say anything at all. And yet he was compelled to say something, and for reasons
unknown to him, it had to be the right something. He had to have the right
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words - extensively ambiguous words, words completely absent of, and yet
completely electrified with meaning. And she held his stare for some time, more
out of paralysis than anything else. He had heard her singing, that alchemy
that dazzled and enraptured him. So…what else could there be? He had listened
and she had sung straight from her soul, so what was he looking for? Did he
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suddenly, for less than a nanosecond, less than was possible to qualify as
time…he saw it. And as he saw it, she felt his, their whole lives in motion
though they were standing perfectly still. The magic he had longed for…the
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that’s the tragedy - the life-breaking reality. It was over before it had
begun, for that was it, that one moment, the break in the circuit. That was
that moment you have all been warned about and conditioned to avoid. That was
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Meeko and I would meander until the dark gathered up all the light and put it in his pocket. Darkness is usually the most fearsome thing, but it wouldn't be if Meeko was by my side. I would tell Meeko what her name means: that she has great strength and is very wise, according to Babynology website. To which she would respond “mm mm m mm?” which would mean “what is a website?” which would have been more convincing if she didn’t then collapse on the floor, emitting a series of hysterical “mmm’s” asserting that EVERYBODY - even alpaca’s - know about the internet. That would be Meeko. I would tell her about prime ministers and that she is 1000% smarter and better looking than them. She would “mm mm mm, mm mm mm”, meaning “you’re too much, really too much”. I would then tell her that they are more pompous than the word pompous intended, but if that weren’t the case, then I might watch the news, because then at least the news would be news. If it is only ever what you expect (excluding exceptional, unfathomably possible events) then by definition, Meeko, it is not called news. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I would then point out the stars and tell her that every single one of them was burning for her, because she was smiling so kindly. I would then explain that if she were to stop, the stars would die away and there would be nothing to separate me from the darkness. She wouldn’t like that idea, so she would promise that she would always smile as long as I was smiling. We would wander, and drink the finest eye-wrenching tequila, and hum along to the ukulele. We would seek out climbable trees and I would climb them and throw a rope down for her so that I could pull her up to the tallest branch. And we would see all of nature communicating, complimenting each other. We would follow the ivy with our eyes as it made its way up trees. We would watch daisies being altruistic, shedding their hair to enable the happiness of children. “He loves me, he loves me not – ohhhhhhh”, and just in that moment, the daisy would grab the spare hair they had been concealing in their stem, while the child wasn’t watching of course. Then the daisy would clear their throat. “What’s that? Wait a second…Oh! He DOES love me!” We would sit there and I would offer Meeko the hay I had brought along for her. This would be the hay I usually filled my rabbit hutch with, but Bernie wouldn’t mind sharing, especially with Meeko. He would love Meeko more than he loved hay. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">And Meeko and I would have adventures that were true, and full of feeling and life. And if I fell down, or lost my way, Meeko would protect me, because Meeko would be strong…and Meeko would be wise. I wish I were like Meeko, the entirely hypothetical, imaginary wonder. </span></div>
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Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-68013940870625802702012-04-11T09:22:00.002-07:002012-10-15T12:16:41.371-07:00Shadows and Quadrilaterals<div style="text-align: justify;">
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distance. The green drowning in drizzle. A light smothers my face. An air vent is
nestled in the wall. So small, that no human breed could crawl through. Not if
under attack. His shadow paints the board. But shadows change. Shadows are
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slush puppy. All of those disconnected buildings. All alone, mocked by the
taller ones. Isn’t it odd how taller buildings become egotistical? There’s
paper supporting a table. It doesn’t make sense. My eyes are drawn to trust.
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denied. A body that’s prohibited. Right now anyway. At least we are protected,
in our cube. The mediator between me and the sky who I didn’t give an I.O.U.
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Sometimes it feels like more than it is - an all-pervasive
sweeping breeze of nostalgia that refuses to alter its course. Sometimes it’s a
song, often and surprisingly one you haven’t heard before, or even associated
with anything enough for it to be imprinted on your mind. It’s this human
thing, something we all cannot shake, a surge of liquid ecstasy drifting around
in our bodies. Nostalgia, everywhere, always, a feeling of “Was it better
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I’m frequently engaged in nostalgia, for it shadows me
like a cloud shadows the sun. Maybe it’s innate, maybe it has a hypersensitive
sensor that simply cannot withstand an entire 3 minutes of John Denver’s senses
being filled up without making my eyes secrete water like a flooded sponge.
It’s "Run around Sue", and "Walk of Life", and every Jimi Hendrix song that I
didn’t see live. It’s a whole collection of jigsawed words that when strung
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attention.“I’m significant! Listen to me! Stop drooling over the
countryside”. Invading our liberty, “You do realise that you are sat, in the
country, on a rock, alone, and its getting dark and your phone is in your car.
I’m just trying to make you aware of that. Go back to ignoring me now”. And you
feel like you have to because your priority lies not with safety but with
experience. Because you feel that this is real, that this means everything more
than everything else. And you don’t want to return to the constraints, though
insulation is a beneficial one, which your very chilly back would agree with.
This is you and the Earth with no middle-man or obstacle. And the strangest
thing is that talking to yourself through thought makes it feel as though your
brain and body are separate entities. What a strange and unfathomably wonderful
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Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-85209382663762944962012-03-25T19:34:00.003-07:002012-10-15T12:17:00.510-07:00Oh how I love the moon.<div style="text-align: justify;">
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usually happens when it’s been overeating glow-paint and cheese. How are you so
colossal, yet when I cover you with my index you disappear? I jog to tire my
body, to lose excess energy for the hope of sleeping tonight, and my sight is
stolen, every time. I cannot look anywhere else for it is pupil dilating, to the
extent that my irises outrank the moon in size and luminosity. The oddest thing
about this habitual engagement, me and the moon sharing a staring contest, is
that I feel like I am running towards it. Every spring fuelled step is a jump
that pushes me higher and higher in to the sky, closer to my unblinking friend.
But I don’t get closer, and that’s the funny old thing. I hate that I never get
closer, but I always try to, knowing that I’m not going to. But it floods me
with this feeling of security and wonder. Though the dimness that paves the
evening offers only the reassurance that it’s possible something bad might
happen, the moon is always there to catch your eye, and remind you that it’s
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Mary Elizabeth Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521839945332938175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6505621863754400666.post-34720930794656143672012-03-25T14:32:00.000-07:002012-10-15T12:18:00.756-07:00Just another play-thing.<div style="text-align: justify;">
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There once was a girl who thirsted to make her own music. It was her first day of school when it first spoke to her and consumed her thoughts. She was but 5 years old when initially drawn to the violin, an instrument that was most vividly imprinted on her mind so that she would think of it by day and by dream. Dancing through the corridors of the school twirling into euphoric dizziness and every so often tugging on her mothers arm, the girl was guided around the place she would occupy for the next 6 years of her life. She believed that Mrs Lily, the teacher leading them was made entirely out of plums. It was the only way to explain the sweet aroma of plums that followed Mrs Lily in every direction she moved. </div>
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The little girl was excited, boundlessly in fact. Everything was so BIG. So colourfully perfect. They strolled by Mrs Kingly’s classroom, wealthy of a thousand pairs of eyes all gazing up at the storyteller sporting the wizard hat. They passed the ceramic fountain, the girl’s eyes temporarily taken from her by the angel spurting water from her mouth. The girl detached herself from her mothers arm and ran over behind the figure to mimic the angel’s pert lips, so that it appeared the water was coming from the little girl’s mouth. Her mother laughed lovingly before joining hands with her and pulling her along. Walking across the courtyard, they entered the arts and crafts department, decorated solely by the children with monsters of every variation adorning the walls. There were giant frogs with ice blasting guns and laser vision, dinosaurs with triple-heads and the power of fire and computers that had legs and arms and consciousness.</div>
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The little girl was inspired, though she felt she would have gone about designing these monsters with a bit of practicality. For instance she would have given the frog a coat because he was frequently going to be surrounded by ice. And given the dinosaur three tails so that they could each express how they were feeling individually. And she wouldn’t ever conceive the possibility of a computer having consciousness. That would be ridiculous. While walking through this tunnel of artwork, her impatient eyes were drawn to the room on the left, the door of the music room slightly ajar, bordering a perfect, glistening blue violin.</div>
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And the bell rang and she leapt off the chair mid-spin. However rapidly she sprinted to the assembly hall, she somehow made it last through the door. She watched with patience, as the music teacher explained the audition process. What this lady required was for each student to sing a scale effectively (I’m not sure how this tested their ability to play) and following the success of producing a scale that didn’t shatter glass, they would proceed on to the next stage. The lady approached the first girl. "Could you sing me a scale please?" The girl obeyed and sang beautifully."Thank you. Now, show me your hands." The little girl didn’t expect her quizzical brow to crop up that day, but what do you know, there it was, almost surpassing her forehead. Show me your hands? What on earth was she looking for? The girl held out her hands. "Excellent, you can play the violin." Determining who could play the violin based on the posture of their hands? What kind of a jip is that? "That’s…different. But it must be essential otherwise they wouldn’t test people in this way", thought the little girl.</div>
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The lady moved onto the next candidate. "Hello, could you sing me a scale please?" This girl’s voice seemed to somehow jam drumsticks into the ears of all others present in the room, most of all, the girl with the '9 Today' badge on. With trepidation, the music teacher said "Hands?" The girl held out her hands. "Fantastic! Wonderful! You can play the violin." The birthday girl shuddered. But now it was her turn. The lady moved across, very slowly and stopped in front of her. "Wow that certainly is a beautiful badge. Is it your birthday today honey?" In all her anxiety, the little girl thought this part of the test or that the teacher was questioning her age. "Yes, of course. I have my birth certificate at home if you want proof." The music teacher looked puzzled, "Oh no darling, I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday." The little girl’s cheeks flushed. "Oh…th-thank you." "Could you sing a scale for me please?" And here it was, her time to shine.</div>
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She sang and it had a few pitches she hadn’t hoped for, but the teacher smiled at her none-the-less, through those huge spectacles of hers. 'Thank you, and can I see your hands?' She held them out for the teacher. And the teacher’s eyes grew 7 times larger through those unflattering glasses.</div>
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Gasping, she let out a shriek of horror. "Oh good heavens! What on earth are those? Those insults to the human form, those loathsome paws of mutant origin – they are crooked, crooked fingers. Ghastly! Unnatural! I’m sorry, very sorry, to tell you this, but-" and the teacher couldn’t finish her sentence before running to the bathroom to be sick. Pale faced, she returned and made her apologies. "I’m sorry, so sorry to do this on your birthday, but it is my regret to tell you that you cannot – and will not- ever be able to play the violin."</div>
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The girl’s bottom lip was now vibrating. She didn’t think there was anything wrong with her hands, but obviously if her teacher said there was, there must have been. She was older, wiser, better, taller; the little girl was merely 9 years old and realised in that moment, the teacher with the big hair and unflattering glasses had ruined her life (or rather the whole of the next hour, if we are speaking in literal terms).</div>
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There was a long pause, nothing in existence but her and this violin. She lifted her right hand, not too quickly, and released her fingers. And something horrible ensued. They began plucking the strings- incessantly, which naturally instilled pain in her ears. Shuddering, she thought maybe the lady with the big hair and unflattering glasses was right. 'My hands are crooked'. She let out a wail so great, it could break your heart upon hearing it. Wiping the water of her tears away, she glanced up at a picture of one of the musicians and noticed he was not plucking the violin in order to make music. This man, had a special “tool” that glided across the strings to inspirit melody.</div>
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Now a lip-wobbling wreck and a human tremor, she tried again and this time, increased the gap between her feet to find balance. "Physics!", she thought. And she lifted her arms, legs, fingers and toes as far as she could, when suddenly, glancing down at her elevated feet so close to the front of the amp, a red alert screaming "Physics!" appeared before her as she fell the 3 flights of ladder facefirst onto the floor. "Thank God for the pile of maraccas", she thought. She reassembled her ladder and focused on staying closest to the centre. Reaching the top, she reached and reached then retreated for a second. Her arms flailed and they pounced, then she retreated some more. Just before exhaustion, she resumed a standing position. "I can DO this!" She lifted her hands as far as she could skimming the top shelf, higher still and "JACKPOT!" Grabbing the thin lining and coaxing it towards the edge, she wrapped it in the other hand and safely stole if from the shelf.“Hoorah! I’ve got it!” She jumped from the amp tower, straight into a moonwalk, complimented by an arm swinging marathon and a time warp rendition before heel clicking several times in the air to finish.</div>
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She…no longer…was in the room, or in her own body for that matter. All thoughts were absent, the Universe- irrelevant. For her 'loathesome paws of mutant origin', found every, single, note. Dancing along the spine, pirouetting through the clouds and slipping into diagonal motions across the full gerth of the middle, the music was all that existed. Through listening to the notes, she was able to reproduce symphonies from the ages, tranqulent classical pieces she had heard in adverts and old movies. Her eyelashes could not unjoin if she asked them to. Tchaikovsky and Beethoven fled from her fingertips, a plethora of sounds encircling her so that she was immersed within them. A scene from Swan Lake. Enigmatically beautiful, the girl had become so absorbed that she had not noticed the river of children and teachers who had entered the room during her playing. With a flawless finale of 'Adagio for Strings', after an extended last stroke, her eyelashes unjoined, her lids opening to reveal a hundred (well actually, thirteen) marvelling faces.</div>
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Declining backwards, I opened my jaw and felt the icy metal penetrate.</div>
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“And there we go, managed to get the little fellow”. Disdain and a quivering jaw met the dentist’s elated eyes.</div>
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“I’m sorry, I realise you were saying something there but I almost had it so I thought it best to keep going. How are you feeling?”</div>
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“Blike anh kice skathe has rode acrossth my bare gum?” The dentist chuckled, the sadistic bastard.</div>
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Cheek inflated by what must have been a gobstopper, I declined the invitation to join him in merriment.</div>
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Dr Perish failed to recognise my indignation as I snatched the forms from his grasp. This was possibly a side effect of constantly being surrounded with morphine, though I somehow didn’t get a look in. Typical. </div>
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There they were…the countless, cretinous, screaming, brow-furrowing things, each hanging from chandelier and coffee table. I tried to count them but the constancy of their shrieking tackled every thought as soon as it formed. Some of the things had 3 other things hanging off them. It was some sort of junglegym, only instead of wood or plastic it was woven with humans and drool. There wasn't an adult in sight, and in my panic I think I might have carelessly ticked "Strongly Agree", on the questionnaire, stating that Dr. You Will Perish "exceeded my expectations". I suppose you could argue that he did, I mean I wasn't expecting to bleed quite so much, to cry quite so loudly and to lose 40 pounds from failure to consume any solids for 5 weeks. And I suppose I do feel like I "gained heightened awareness", from the experience. In the future I will brush my teeth at least 5 times a day, ALWAYS floss and never ever book an appointment with someone whose name suggests demise. </div>
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and that boy with ebony eyes</div>
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With logic at bay,</div>
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A figure that breaks</div>
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walks over only to walk away.</div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 11pt;">It was February 2011 when Charlotte emailed what can only be described as the most enthusiasm-fuelled email that has ever escaped ones 'Drafts' box. I imagined her panting fingers typing "Half-price, they're HALF-PRICE. Let's go on THREE consecutive cruises! Let's conquer the WORLD! I'll bet some of the ships even go to SPACE!" My recall might be a little unreliable on that front, but I reciprocated with the excitement by calling her while in the middle of reading the first sentence (while tigger-ing around the room). That was all that was required, rendering her efforts in writing a 75 page long email (explaining how this cruise was essential to her life's continuence) as rather pointless. But I do believe my answer was "Yabba-dabba-Chappa!!!!" or something to that effect, which she seemed fairly pleased about.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">At the time of this proposition, I was working full-time in an office environment and reeling in the predictably insufficient wages one would imagine. But boy, freeloading sure can pay off (I kid, my parent's robbed me BLIND). And Charlotte was an impeccably organised and capable student. Thus it was possible, and possible was all we needed. I</span><span style="font-size: 11pt;"> have forever thirsted to explore Europe and Charlotte likewise, so naturally, we booked it immediately. Unfortunately, I was naive as to how exciting the two months leading up to the trip would truly be. I was not aware for instance, that if you are to meander through Middlesbrough with seven dimensions of excitement dancing in your pupils, that you should "expect to get arrested". I say that in jest, it would be highly amusing though surely. Even if there had been multiple arrests I would have forgiven all after spending eight interminable nights in Europe.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 11pt;">The day of departure arrived sooner than it felt possible. Preparations were tiresome, as they are when preparing for a journey of eight nights which requires no less clothing than is necessary for an entire lifetime of cocktail-sipping and sun-consuming. We were boarding at Tilbury, which required waking at an obscenely early hour in order to arrive before the ship departed.
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with the intention of writing a travel journal. The truth is...at that time my writing was in
a deep, irrevocable state of 'being on hiatus' after I had convinced myself in college that it
wouldn’t take me anywhere. But the truth is I didn't know where I wanted to go at that time. The aura of uncertainty that manifested
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struggle of ungratified self-enquiry. "What am I to do with my life? I can do
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was born that boy you’ve all heard about, beard boy or queer beard – it was the
boy who was born in a beard. His life was an abyss of pain, or rather an abyss
of beard, shadowing his every step, cradling him as a duvet in sleep and
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talk about? “I’ve got a silent night duvet”, “I’ve got this” – points to beard.
“I fell over and cut my knee today”, “My beard tried to strangle me in my sleep
last night”. He rationalised that it would be better to keep to himself. That
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allocated in the classroom, swallowing surrounding children from their desks the moment he sat
down. Teachers failed to locate these children for many a moon and upon
reappearing, their skin was discoloured and it looked as though they had been
soaking in a bath full of tea bags for the duration. Maybe there was in fact a
giant bath full of teabags wrapped up in there. That was how Andy Randal’s
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teachers deliberated. “I know he’s different, but to tell you the truth Susan,
his beard is becoming a fire hazard. It took me hours to locate little Tommy Spencer
yesterday, tangled up with the cactus plant he had brought in for show and
tell. He looked like he’d been rolled across a field laid with hedgehogs”.
Billy sank into his beard. “I mean why can’t his parents just chop it off?
Don’t they want him to get along with other girls and boys? Don’t they want him
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area it filled. It was an equation that boggled the minds of the maths teachers
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We’re talking everything from pencils, to tractors, from televisions to
protractors –even sombreros. The town had become a stream of enchantment
awaiting its discoverer. Yet they remained adrift. </span><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">"I vote home-schooling." </span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Billy sank further,
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Welcome to the wittily entitled (said with optimism) ‘Uninhibited
Blatherings’, a blog that will stand by it's title and do everything but deceive! The idea is to include a little bit of everything (stories, topical pieces, songs, poems, maybe even a few movie and album reviews). The main focus is development. I am an aspiring writer who has recently begun studying English Studies with Creative Writing which thusfar has been consistently funtabulerrific! (I tend to do that sometimes) </div>
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The intention of this blog is to create a running record of my work and development over the course of completing my degree. Though still experimenting with different forms/genres of writing, at the present I am thoroughly enjoying writing fiction. I have developed a collection of short stories, which generally incorporate elements of the bizarre and magical, in addition to those of the real. As I am a first year student, I am using this time to play around with writing styles in an attempt to find my niche within the writing world.
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I would hugely appreciate any feedback offered, even if it
consists of seven dimensions of slander. Seriously, if it’s going to help -
never hold back! I sincerely hope you enjoy my writing and can derive
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I will update as soon as time permits <span style="font-family: Wingdings; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span> </div>
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